The cost of it all...

I made it to Amsterdam safely today. By the time I got on the plane in Atlanta last night I was so exhausted I slept most of the plane ride over! It has been a fun afternoon in Amsterdam, I got to experience public transportation in a completely unknown city. In an unexpected way, it was one more affirmation that I can do this. And a much needed affirmation at that. Yesterday was much harder than I had expected. I realized how much of a sacrifice this journey is for my family and the people who love me. I was thankfully reminded by a wise friend (that would be Audra!) that the sacrifice is worth it because the gospel is at stake.

While the unknown of this trip is exciting because I get to see God's plan play out day by day, it also adds anxiety because I don't know when I'll be back or when I'll get to see the faces of those that I love most again. I felt so silly as I sat on the plane and cried as I turned my phone off in Atlanta. That cell phone is my connection to all of the people in my life. But, as I sat and tried to get my act together I realized that an exciting shift is taking place in my life. A shift to becoming dependent on God for everything. Not just for healing, comfort, wisdom, or provision. He is about to become my best friend. Something that I have desired for a long time, but was never necessary because I had constant fellowship with all the people who know me best. So as scary as it is when I sit here in this tiny hotel room and let my head take over, I have to weigh the options and follow my heart and be obedient.

The next time I blog, I will be in the beautiful country of Uganda...which is much warmer than Amsterdam I might add! I can't wait to show you pictures of those precious babies at Sonrise and share stories validating that this is all worth it! Much love to all of you!